Burn Everything You Know

I've been scratching my head trying to figure out a proper metaphor for what I'm about to discuss, but it's proven pretty difficult. So I'm going to make up a nonsensicalness (real word) one for this post. Think of it as my version of Alice in Wonderland, with symbolism. Eventually I'll provide a point I guess, maybe it'll make sense; more likely it will too be nonsensical(ness).

You're standing before many doors, each door is a journey with a castle at the end; you pick a door. Now you're on your journey and all things are possible. Along the way, you change as an adventurer. This particular journey you're on requires you to become a strong climber, expert gun-smith and a beautiful singer. The people on this journey appreciate your climbing skills, your ability to make a gun and your voice, the journey is going well. Then suddenly the walls of your journey collapse around you and you are stuck. There is no way to reach the castle, what can you do?

You return to the doors to choose a new journey; equipped with your climbing, gun-smithing and golden voice. It's difficult to do, but you pick another door. This journey is harsher than the first one, when you run into trouble, you try to use your climbing, but find yourself drowning. You try another door, running into trouble you decide to make a gun, but you're shooting at ghosts. You try another door and try to soothe the locals with song, but they are deaf. So far your other journeys are pretty damn horrible.

This post brought to you by Gunslinger of The Dark Tower series.

So what do you do? Well you might start by not relying on what your first journey taught you. Sure it's nice to be able to climb, sing and kill stuff with bullets, but perhaps you're too advanced in that journey to learn from new journeys. So stop, drop these skills or at least put them aside and try something new. When you get to your first challenge on a new journey, try something new and you might pick up a new skill.

Listen to the above as you contemplate the rest.

So what am I getting at? Well I'm at a point in my life where my mindset was on certain aspects of life (the journey), I was far along into an adventure (relationship). Now that I have to take on new adventures, I'm putting so much pressure on myself because of the mindset I was in on the last adventure. It's time to drop my armor, unlearn my skills, and take things at face value. There is no importance, there are no dire consequences and no one is putting pressure on me but myself.

It's a journey after all...the longer we take to get there, the more of an adventure we've had.

First of June

Today, I stop waiting and start living.

Good News Is Rough

Funny how news works. They cure Cancer (bullshit or not) and it's pretty much ignored; Arnold Schwarzenegger knocks up his nanny and it's front page news...at least in some places. Yeah we all know by now that's the case and it's nothing new, but I'm starting to realize as someone who upkeeps a blog it extends to writing non-fiction too. See, I could moan about the car accident I had, the weather we're having or even how June 1st marks a very definite end to an era; I could fill at least seven and a half posts full of that shit. Yet, writing a blog about an upbeat topic is so much of a challenge. I'm actually very happy right now, so I'm going to take the challenge and write something maybe not thought provoking, but with a bit of hope.

Unrelated lolz

I can't bring myself to lament with any sort of conviction because the good that seems to be happening in my life makes it incredibly difficult to dwell on the bad and even so I've come to understand the harsh times of our lives are the ones that bring about the most growth. Right now I'm on the precipice of a project that could define the rest of my life, my job is amazing and my friends are golden shards of diamonds encrusted with awesome; how can I complain about anything? Okay, I guess it's time to bring this down a notch to a level more easily identifiable by most.

The default human condition is to focus on a fault or hardship we might be going through and that's fine, no judgement. We've all done it. "Oh my hair looks like kak." Great, there's people who can't even grow hair on their head. Lame example I agree, why would anybody think, "Oh my hair is kak, but at least I can grow hair." It's difficult, if not impractical, to counter a bad thought with a good one, but sometimes you stumble upon that golden ticket. Something so good that it can make any rainy day still rainy, but with a promise of sunshine.

Banksy's Hope Girl

No one can tell you what that reason might be, it depends on what you might be looking for or what you might stumble upon by surprise and there's no set way to discover it. Read a zillion self-help books, sixty blogs or find a religion; I'm afraid no one is going to guarantee your happiness except you. Only you can come to a realization that, hey things aren't that bad, they're pretty damn kiff actually. On that note I'll leave you to think about that.

I could give you cotton candy, but if you're not at the fair...it's only going to confuse you. Make sense of that one.